It’s seems so wild to me to share this intimate dream with you but idk here it is
I had a very strange dream about “Monroe Ct” last night (the town I grew up in) it wasn’t really Monroe but rather a very distorted dreamscape of Monroe in which route 25 was longer than normal, in some places a river ran alongside it.
Anyway, I was at Brookes, it wasn’t even the brookes I remember as a kid that later became rite aid but it was a small hole in the wall pharmacy/drug store. From what I could remember I was there because there was a ton of poop crusted on my dildo and I thought I would try the toy wipes since I didn’t have access to running water and also I wanted a pack of cigarettes. I believe that before this… I was living in some large sunny house with a lot of people and we were… idk but I ran into my dad and little sister in the store (which I was lingering and being sketchy bc I was trying to steal stuff since I had no money) and my dad was like let me buy ur things what are you getting? And I was like uh!! I simply can not let you buy the things I need- and then I ran into Rae who I guess worked there. We were both really perplexed and it was awkward and he was like don’t you get it? I loved you? And I was like YAH DUDE ME FUCKING TOO wtf even happened? And he was like “ I let you smell my armpits that’s different” and I was so distraught and was like I know fuck You dude I miss you so much fuck you and ran out of the store to the woods across the street and cried then finally got up to try and get cigs again but brookes was closed and there was a line forming in the parking lot, some bros where tableing and there were a bunch of cds which I kinda just cut the line to see what was up realized I couldn’t get cigs then left and tripped on a pile of cds and got embarrassed and started crying again and ran as fast as I could up route 25 yelling out “fuck this town! Fuck this life! I loved you!” (Which she wasn’t there but I really felt beths presence comforting me as I ran)
Finally, I approached this dusty tiny shack near this swamp land that 25 cut through. It was just off the side of the road and had a pink frame and a double screen door and an opened window. I remembered this as a weird vegan ice cream arcade that only had a couple games and a wall of vinyl u could browse in the back that Sam Molloy took me to once (this place never existed irl) but so I approached and these dudes were like, hey sorry babe were closed and I was like “I’m friends with Sam Molloy?” And they were like OLD SCALLYWAG?! Lol Aw man cool yah let us hook you up- you ok? How about some coffee with oat milk? We can make it decaf, you like sour??
So they started pouring me some coffee and the other guy let me in to this very small and dark shack illuminated only by the glow of the arcade machines and some green light over the vinyl. It also had Halloween decorations. That was in the back though, the facade of the shack was set up like an old school ice cream parlor. Anyway this guy was like, hey you look pretty beat up? What are you hitch hiking? You got to be careful.
And I was like yah something like that I’m trying to get up route 25
And he said, well you could totally crash here if you want, you could sleep under that table outside in the back, it keeps the rain out pretty good.
And that’s when I noticed I was so tired. So I sat on the ground and laid my head on the bench of the table. The guys came over to like smoke weed and stuff and the blonde one sat next to me and kept trying to put my head in his lap and I kept lackadaisically refusing. Finally he grabbed my hair and tried to put his foot in my mouth at which point a car pulled up so I insistently pushed this guy away from me and ran up to it.
The other guy was like HEY MEG! You’re here! And she got out for a second to say hi and I was like, hey can you get me out of here and give me a ride? And she was like is (I forgot the name of the blonde guy) being a creep? And I was like yes please get me out of here and she was like you’ve got it let’s go and we got in the car. And we were driving up 25 and the sun finally came out and was illuminating this grassy flowery hill side in which a river was running and I was like
I don’t remember Monroe being so beautiful- I grew up here
And she was like yah tell me more
And we talked as I sunk deeper and deeper into the seat and she told me I was beautiful and wanted to take pictures of me sometime and I was growing so sleepy and she said
You know Monroe looks different because you are dreaming and I said I know I’m dreaming I’m afraid if I fall asleep here that ill wake up there and that will really be my dream
And we turned from route 25 to Huntingtown road and in the peninsula where the farmer vegetable stand used to be was a small park where a bunch of people were cutting down trees
I asked Meg why they were doing that and she said idk
Meg looked like Emily (the one who got away) and gave me the same big brown eyed look they used to and it made me want to cry again- She asked me if I wanted to go back and the tears welled more-
Both these places are fucked up I said but I miss Marion
Lay down go to sleep Meg said
And then I woke up
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