E Eats

You caught me in a lie- or I didn’t realize what I was doing tbh but I realized I posted about eating more but my blog showed otherwise, as in, it’s true I keep having tequila for dinner.

I did order a burrito from the tasty which I am waiting on now. I had to drop off Truck bc they fucked up fixing it – walking around south at this hour of the morning, in this temperature, reminds me of this time in Florida/California the memories are blurring but it was the same January I was in San Diego/ El Cajon and Naples- it was a time in my life where I really didn’t know how to dress (2013?) I remember walking around in the early early morning, wearing bleached worn in purple scrubs and this neon orange cropped string fuzzy sweater (think bjork) I used to wear this combo all the time with my hair in two buns on top of my head. This was also when I was working on wearing shoes again, which my in between was this pair of canvas ballet slippers, totally worn in with holes that I just wore everywhere. The sun on my skin, with the cool air, promising to warm as the day goes on, reminds me of being alone, confused, sad, uncertain of my future, wandering around in a strange place, racing brain yet somehow numb brain at the same time- I remember prior to one of those walks petting a soft looking cactus and getting little tiny also invisible glass needles all in my hand and how I had gone to give myself a massage and got them all in my shoulder muscles and during a walk, wrote a song/poem about that being a metaphor for my life.